Sorry

Don't expect many updates for the next few days. I was planning on updating a lot this week but it looks like that won't happen. This week just isn't looking like it's going to be a good week and I'm not going to bother you all with the same boring emo crap day after day.

What am I?

Here is a list of the things I supposedly am according to numerous people:

I AM
1) Stupid
2) Fat
3) Ugly
4) Lazy
5) An Idiot
6) A Moron
7) A Liar
8) Worthless
9) A Blimp
10) A Cow

Now while I know and hope that othere don't/won't share these opinions. It still bugs me that they continue to say this sort of stuff. Especially when they know how much it bugs/annoys/hurts me!


On a Different and Less Depressing Note:
Don't we all wish we could marry Tom Cruise just so we could have Armani disign our Wedding Dress?! I mean look at that thing! Its gorgeous!
http://people.aol.com/people/gallery/0,26335,1073518_1560535,00.html


Fun Filled Icons That Make Me Happy

Why?

Why do I even bother trying anymore? It's never been enough and it never will be enough. So, what is the point in trying to reach for the one thing in life I know will never come true?

Crushed Spirits

You know how you always had that one special memory from when you were a kid. It was so special that you could never forget it no matter how hard you tired.

For me that memory wasn't one single event. It was a whole season.........Christmas. I loved Christmas since before I could even remember. I always left Santa a huge plate of cookies on Christmas Eve and the reindeer got carrots. Heck even Saint Nicolas got cookies cuz he shouldn't get left out of all the fun.

Well my memory was Christmas and more spacifically going to see and old holiday movie with my dad. Every year we've gone to the old Times Cinema and seen whatever holiday movie they were playing that year.

Well this year that ain't happening. Dad doesn't want to go. It's the same movie as last year and he doesn't want to waste money seeing it again. Doesn't matter that it's been our own special Christmas tradition for the past 3-4 years, he still won't go.

So yeah, now Christmas isn't going to be as special and exciting as it used to be. This was the one thing that I could honestly say was just mine and my dad's. No Margie, no Eddie, no nobody, just me and him. It was special to me and now it's gone.

So sorry if I'm not as excited as usual about Christmas this year. It just seems to have lost some of it's sparkle. It's not going to be the same. The tree, the cookies, church, just isn't going to be the same.

I think for the first time in my life, I am actually not looking forward to Christmas.

Seriously

I am very seriously thinking about stopping this blog as of right now. It does not seem like very many people care about any of the crap I write. So, I think I may just stop writing in general. This is not a final decision, I may change my mind. But, based on my mood right now. I don't know if I will

You Gotta Love When...

One of your family members doesn't remember your name and another member refuses to acknowledge you existence any more. Also, when the person who refuses to acknowledge you, also says that you and your whole life are doomed to failure.